There is this arc that happens each day when I create my daily film.
Beforehand, if I have no clear idea- I’m about an inch from deciding ‘no more’. My brain is VERY good at reasoning why today is a good day to stop and that the whole project was pointless anyway. There’s no need to push through and make something today; it is more important to rest.
After I’ve fought those demons and manage to scrape together a beginning of a whisper of a something of an idea; I’m on the train, in the game, fanning the flame.
Then I make it! It’s not perfect, but it’s a thing! Suddenly I’m aligned again with all the reasons I’m doing this in the first place! I remember that it’s not about being perfect but it’s about gettin a ‘rep’ in, and here it is, my precious rep for that day!
And so I am immediately obsessed with this little thing that I made. I watch it over and over again and enjoy the little seams and details only the maker can see.
I love my little time capsules.
I often second guess whether to follow through.
But I tell you what, I always feel glad for having made something.
